Man, this is just like my first blog post last semester. I have nooo idea what to blog about, because I haven't really been writing anything. Which, in itself, is worth posting about...
I think it's time to make a promise.
Let's see. I write because it's like spitting my soul out onto the paper, so I'm not all bound up in my own emotions. My life's ambition is to have children, but I don't know if that's going to happen... so my characters are my children. My precious Katelyn Rose, especially. I don't know where she even came from; she just popped into my life, and now I'm desperately trying to create a world for her to exist in. Otherwise she'll be homeless, and die of bitter cold. I write because the act itself lifts me out of my depression. I write because I never know what to say, but I do know how to write it. I write because sometimes, I am nothing but words, and I need a home, too - so I flop down on the page, spin around a couple times, collapse in exhaustion, and sleep off the confusion. I write because I am this.
BUT. I haven't been writing lately (except for in my creative writing class, but that's only revision, and I am really craving a fresh story). It's like I've given up. I'm taking 20 units in college, I have three jobs, I'm barely able to keep my apartment, not to mention my relationships... and I always leave my creative writing homework until minutes before it's due. This needs to change. That's why, instead of sleeping - which I haven't done in days - I'm writing this blog post about how I don't write anymore, hoping it's the first step. I don't want to leave my writing for last. I mean, c'mon! I'm a creative writing major!!! I need to get my act together. So. This is me, thinking about my writing FIRST for once in a long time. It's time to get my priorities in order. I'll be back tomorrow night. I promise.
p.s. Katelyn Rose says hi!!!